Yes, I said it. Does it shock you, this admission? Have I fallen off of my rocker?
I am admitting that I am human, I make mistakes, sometimes the same one over and over again. I fail myself, and others daily. I am not perfect. There's only been One who was perfect, and I'm not in any hurry to take His spot.
Romans 7:14-17 says, "14 For we know that the Law is spiritual, but I am of flesh, sold into bondage to sin.15 For what I am doing, I do not understand; for I am not practicing what I would like to do, but I am doing the very thing I hate. 16 But if I do the very thing I do not want to do, I agree with the Law, confessing that the Law is good. 17 So now, no longer am I the one doing it, but sin which dwells in me. 18 For I know that nothing good dwells in me, that is, in my flesh; for the willing is present in me, but the doing of the good is not."
Thank God, I'm redeemed, saved from this sinful self. But it's a lifelong process, this is. It takes a lifetime to win the small battles and big ones, over our selfish, sinful nature. To be perfected in His glory. Wait, didn't I just say I can't be perfect?? True, I did. However, I mean when I enter into Heaven, I will be found perfect, holy and a new body, which is free from sin, pain, sorrows and death. Oh what a day that will be. I long for it. I long to sit at His feet and worship Him. I long to have my voice join in with the Angels and Heavenly Host.
Back to being hypocritical.
Many people say that Christians are hypocrites. And many Christians take offence to this. I know I have a time or two. If I'm honest though, which I'm trying to be more and more, I'd have to agree. As a believer, I'm trying to submit to the Word of God, and sometimes that is a struggle and harder to accomplish. So I mess up, I rebel, I fall back into old ways, instead of obeying His Word. So then I look like I just talk and don't walk. A lot of being a believer, is heart work. Heart work is not seen right away. When it starts to show, it's a little here...a little there. A slow trickle. And sometimes, it's a rush, but mostly, it trickles. A lot of being a believer is developing His character over time, not a fast forward, instant thing.
Our society has us thinking that we can have what we want, right away. We see others getting, so we want to get as well. No patience. No waiting. No working hard to receive it an honest, meaningful way. We give things to our children, without making them work for it. It's under appreciated.
In this consumer world, it's easy to think that the life of a believer should be this fast paced too. But the heart and mind are much slower than that. It takes time, and repetition, to fully see what He reveals in His word. To allow it to work in us, and change us.
So yes, I'm a hypocrite, I'll be one until I'm in Heaven. But I'm trying, are you?