A lot has been on my heart, lately. About my attitude on many subjects or people. I'm a work in progress, and sometimes that work hurts. Hurts my pride, hurts the independent selfish self. Sometimes, eating humble pie is scary.
While I won't fully disclose what's been in working progress, some of it I can talk about. Like my attitude about politics. Or about marriage.
First up: Politics. It still makes me feisty and see red a lot. But I'm beginning to see it differently. From a more Godly perspective. Less about me and what I think is right and more about how God wants me to vote, use my voice for things, etc. Afterall, He is in charge and has a plan. Even if I don't like it/know what it is. But it's kinda scary to think what He'll have me do or say, ya know? So I'm listening, but still throwing a fit. Typical child! ;)
My Marriage, or just in general: I love my husband. He loves me. But I am not easy to live with. I have many rough edges that need smoothing. And that process is hard, maybe even harder when pregnant. Or that could be just an excuse. God has been placing on my heart, that I am my husband HELP-mate. And I'm doing a piss-poor job of it, currently. Even though I say I don't like using pregnancy to get out of things, I think I am. And that isn't fun to realize about yourself. See, like I said...painful process.
While I won't fully disclose what's been in working progress, some of it I can talk about. Like my attitude about politics. Or about marriage.
First up: Politics. It still makes me feisty and see red a lot. But I'm beginning to see it differently. From a more Godly perspective. Less about me and what I think is right and more about how God wants me to vote, use my voice for things, etc. Afterall, He is in charge and has a plan. Even if I don't like it/know what it is. But it's kinda scary to think what He'll have me do or say, ya know? So I'm listening, but still throwing a fit. Typical child! ;)
My Marriage, or just in general: I love my husband. He loves me. But I am not easy to live with. I have many rough edges that need smoothing. And that process is hard, maybe even harder when pregnant. Or that could be just an excuse. God has been placing on my heart, that I am my husband HELP-mate. And I'm doing a piss-poor job of it, currently. Even though I say I don't like using pregnancy to get out of things, I think I am. And that isn't fun to realize about yourself. See, like I said...painful process.
Romans 6: 14, "For sin shall not have dominion over you, for you are not under law but under grace."
I'm am daily thankful that God is a God of grace and mercy. Without it, or Him, I'd be lost and ugly.
Yes sometimes pregnancy or just not feeling good is an excuse. Even for old ladies!! Karen
ReplyDeleteI try not to let it be an excuse, or I might over abuse it! lol
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